My stats are down. Way down.
When I wrote earlier in the week that I’m writing for me, I meant it. This is my place to think and process what’s going on in my life – mostly in my head. So though I *will* admit that it’s awesome to check in and find I’ve gotten over a hundred hits in a day, I don’t need stats to make this worth it for me.
Usually I can count on at least 50-60 hits on a day when I post something new. Most of those link from Facebook, where my friends and family keep tabs on me. My biggest days? The post after No2 was born, and my post entitled “Breast is Best“. I figure people wanted to see the new baby…and then couldn’t wait to get all riled up and argue about breastfeeding. (Nobody argued with me, by the way. It wasn’t that kind of post.)
So why aren’t they reading now that I’m exclusively writing about mental health for a month? My ego truly isn’t bruised. I am simply worried about what this tells me about my topic. Could it be that mental health is still so taboo that no one wants to read about it? Or are these posts boring people? Is the ppd blogging community deluding ourselves when we think we’re creating awareness? Perhaps we’re really only writing for one another. Or maybe it’s just a bit overwhelming. It’s a tough topic. Hard to think about. I get that – really. It’s a month of heavy writing, of me up on my soapbox. So I understand if some of my readers are taking a break.
I will keep writing. 1 in 5 mothers suffers from a postpartum mood or anxiety disorder. This statistic from Postpartum Progress is shocking and frightening:
In fact, more mothers will suffer from postpartum depression and related illnesses this year than the combined number of new cases for both sexes of tuberculosis, leukemia, multiple sclerosis, Parkinson’s disease, Alzheimer’s disease and epilepsy. This is not to minimize these other terrible diseases, of course. I simply want to illustrate just how prevalent postpartum mood & anxiety disorders are.
These women cannot be left to believe they are alone. I will continue to stand up and proudly claim my status as a ppd survivor and anxiety sufferer. I am proof that mental illness can strike anyone, and that you can come out the other side stronger and more resilient than ever.
I hope you will support my fight against stigma. I hope you will keep reading.